Hello hello. Emotional night again. Sorry but I tend to be more emotional at this kind of timing. And fml blame my hands. I clicked on something on social media and saw something that really hurts me so much. But okay la I'm feeling much better now.

I know he won't be reading this. But. Everytime I login to this blog account, I will think of him. The password is he changed for me. It consists of our anniversary date and his birthday. Hahaha if anyone is reading this, you can try hacking. Because the arrangement is kinda, aiya whatever I doubt anyone will have so much time. Okay so it's another night when I think about the past. I know I really need to get over everything, but I just can't. At the end of the day, I still care. Maybe because he's someone I have been together for so long. Someone who understands me inside out. Someone who have seen every side of me. I used to be a girl with no sense of fashion, merely wearing a tee shirt and fbt. But he taught me how to wear nicer clothes and stuff, although my fashion sense now still very jialat haha. He had seen the ugly side of me. I used to not wear any contacts and makeup. He has seen my naked face yet loved me for who I am. He knew all my health problems like errrhm hahaha. So, I was thinking of the day I left him. That very last day. That day, I didn't drop any tears. I was so heartless. Okay I don't want to elaborate on how we part. At least my wish is granted, that is him finding someone better than me. After all, I'm not good enough. I have never blame him or anyone for our breakup, I just blame myself. Yes, only myself. Sigh. I was also thinking of the last time I met him. That day I went to took my things from him. And when I part from him that day, I broke down. I literally broke down. I don't know why do I even feel that day. I just feel so lost. Luckily that day, babyg was there for me. I called her, cried to her, met her and I feel so much better. Oh ya saw William that day too. Sigh I really want to thank every single one who are there for me :') okay la, like what I have always said, I don't regret anything that I have done. :')

Okay will end here. Sorry for all the grammar error, too lazy to go back and edit. Haha. I know I will regret on the next morning about what I posted. But yolo. Gonna try to sleep soon. Lesson at 8am. Fml. Hahahah. Bye :) and good night to someone special. I haven't been talking to you. And I know you won't be reading this too. But. You still matters to me a lot. I need to sort out my feelings. I need to sort out many things. And I have to focus on my studies, my exam and projects. I will contact you again next month okay. I hope I will do well for my studies. That msg of you asking me to work hard, is still in my phone. Although it may mean nothing to you, it meant so much to me! That's my source of motivation now. :') <3 x